The Innocent face!

I want you to empathize on a situation. Think that you are a woman with a kid with no house, no job, no biological relatives nor a place to go. Feel bad? Feel Terrible? However, stop doing it any more that is what I learned today.




I felt the same as you when I met a woman like that today. I was fighting my tears when she asked for 2 bucks.  Her voice choked as she talked. When asked her why she needs the money, she replied, she wants to get some food and she did not have any thing for few days. I could feel the heat radiating from my face. I gave her the money and told her to find a job immediately and take care of the baby. I started walking back to work, I was annoyed with myself for not helping her more and cursing my incapability, but my brain was frozen and all the controlled emotions just broke out as a violent explosion (I made sure no body saw me weeping. Some times, I feel it is a blessing in disguise that it is a busy world. People are just too busy that they hardly notice what others do or look like today).



She looked like a young woman not more than 25. She was beautiful. Her innocent face kept flashing my mind for the rest of the day. Her eyes were in pain. Some thing inside me, keep telling me she needs help. She looked tired but her eyes still did not loose the spark of her youth. She was so convincing.



I came back to my seat and my colleagues noticed me. Jain, my colleagues noticed my face. There comes the first shock of the day. Jain forced me to think about the mistakes I have done. First the place where she was, If you do not have a place to go with a kid will you be near a work place asking for money? When I thought about it Jain is right hardly few people walk that way. There are many places where we get free food these days. I remembered there is one just few blocks from where I met her. Third, I opened my wallet to take the money. Some one could have easily come and snatched it from me. It is a racket and I am kind of people they target.



The thought that I helped some one today to buy alcohol or drugs just made me sick. If some one-need food and I need to help I should go buy food for them. Instead, I was there giving advice to get a job and take care of the baby that almost fell on deaf ears. The thought that 2 bucks from my hard-earned money was spend on a disaster made me miserable. The incident haunted me the rest of the day and I know it will haunt me for the rest of my life. She looked so convincing but as Jain said. She is doing it because she is good at convincing people.



I wanted to cut out this memory from my brain. I lie down and close my eyes but her innocent face came to my mind. She was beautiful and her eyes keep telling me she needs help!!

 
The Traveler – I may not be much , but all I got is you !